Life used to be one big theater for me
I had to play, I had to act
Masks and facades and barriers
Had all been a part of me
That sometimes they became my "truth."
And do I have to tell you
That before I resented you?
You were seeing right through me
For that meant I wasn't convincing enough.
Others saw the smiles and claimed
But you saw how empty those smiles were.
You saw the pain beneath,
The uncertain, vulnerable child that I was
Hidden behind those masks.
I tried my best to avoid those probing eyes
I was wary of the wisdom those knowing eyes held.
If I could then shut myself from you, I would
For you "scared" me and it's not because
You were mean or ill-tempered
But because you knew me so well
That I felt vulnerable with and around you
And no one wants to be vulnerable, right?
Pride dictated me to shun you
So no one would then read me accurately
No one would know my heart and being but me
But you were so understanding of and patient in
Just letting me be, waiting for me to mellow and mature
While doing your best to help me probe deepest into myself
That I may bring to light the real me.
Little by little, my defenses came crumbling down
Until finally, nothing was left but my true self
The very self that I used to hide and deny surfaced...
I no longer resent you, in fact I never did.
I just thought I did but now I know
That those were just resistances...
I'm glad that all those masks are now gone
I no longer act, I never will again
For life is no grand theater,
Everything and everyone is real
And so I must be too.
I am what I am and it feels good to be me
And it feels even better to know
That you accept me as I am.
Thank you... for being my mirror of truth
For that's all I needed for my awakening.
