Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Another Turning Point (that is, if I Say Yes)

"It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.  I hope you had the time of your life…"

So goes a song from Greenday. And as I listen to it, I wonder about how some things unpredictable have worked out in my life.

I'm a planner.  And an OC (obsessive-compulsive) one at that especially when it's my life that we're talking about.  More than my being a planner though is my being goal-oriented.  When I set myself to something, I must achieve this something no matter what.

When I was small, people asked me where I wanted to study and without batting an eyelash, I would confidently reply, "in UP."  Fast forward to six years and I had just become a freshman in State U.

My life plan also listed that by age twenty-eight, I should be a manager already and this too happened even earlier than planned as I was just twenty-five when I achieved my current position.

So single-minded I am that I almost always have just one option.  I refrain from having fallback plans just so I will do everything to make One-and-Only Plan A to happen and work for me.

But there are times when no matter my best efforts, things just don’t work out as planned.  Some of these things too do not even get dealt to me as life has given me a different set of cards than what I would have wanted.

I did not plan on getting a degree in Tourism and yet, I did.  I planned of working, even settling abroad by the time I was twenty-six and yet at twenty-eight, I am still here in my home country.

The above are just two of the most unpredictable things that happened to me but as that Greenday song said, these turned out to be for the best as my college degree enabled me to be in my current industry, which I love and my current company turned out to be my niche that a mere two years after being here, I gave up all plans of going abroad.

As I remember the above, I am also thinking of something unpredictable that happened to me yesterday that kept me awake until the wee hours of the morning.  As almost all things unpredictable are, this something entails me moving out of my comfort zones and confronting the unknown.  It requires a huge risk - something that I only calculatingly take.    

At this point, I still don't know if I am going to accept the offer as it's not included in my plans.  It's actually shaking my already very well-laid plans to the core that I'm now left looking at the loops and ends trying to see where it fits. 

And as I mentally map moving these pieces into what I hope are their rightful places, I realize that it is not the life pieces I have that matter.  It is what I do with them.

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