?

why resurface now
and try to rekindle
the embers
of a love
long doused?

Fools

We've both been fools
Where the other is concerned.

You want me to be still
While I yearn to spread my wings
And fly to paths
Uncharted.

I want you
To express things
In black and white
But you would rather have them
In gray...

Makes you feel safer
I guess.

We are
Two very similar individuals
Both single-minded
And independent
Used to getting his
And her own ways
Unyielding
Unattainable, even.

Vulnerability
Never did define
Either one of us
And even for what "could be"
We refuse to let down
Our guards.

You twist words
To best suit you
You make and break
And bend the rules
To your advantage
And I do the same
Quite as cunningly.

What good does it do then
To engage
In a battle of wits
And more so, of wills
With you?

Where is the sense
In all these
When we both know
That each wants the upper hand
And will not consider
Losing...

Not even
Compromising?

Where have you led me
All these times
But to the utmost distraction
Of my mind?

But my will
Will never be broken.

This is not
A concession
Of my defeat
But rather, of my ending
This senseless journey
For I have grown
Weary
Of waiting.

Now I spread
The wings you clipped
And start flying.

Woman & Beauty

It is not beauty that defines a woman

because it is she who defines beauty.
Beauty is being contented with and accepting of
who and what she really is.
It is the strength in her character,
the confidence, optimism, joy and hope
that she has in the way she lives life to the fullest.
It is in her warm, caring & nurturing nature,
In the way she is a “mother” to all.


A woman is not perfect
and she does not try to be
But her beauty is best seen
in how she carries herself in trying, difficult times.
A woman’s beauty is in her courage & bravery
to fight life’s challenges head on.
It is in her being aware of her inadequacies
and in knowing full well
How to make the most of them.


A woman is beautiful
and her only affirmation in that
is her belief in herself.

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kahlan nynaeve, with a score of 12345 and at level 6 in Yahoo Answers.

The One Who Got Away*

"There is but one true and great love," her friend once said with eyes all agleam. She just laughed. It was a foreign, even ridiculous concept for her. And then she truly fell in love. Hard. But she fought it . She said he does not meet her requirements and expectations... that they are from two very different worlds and whatever relationship they will share just won't work. She thought of all the reasons that she could think of to shut him out of her life, to justify her shying away from him. Confused and in pain, he said that she was unfair. To him. To herself. To both of them. "Give me a chance," he implored but the words just fell on deaf ears...

Fast forward to a couple of years after she bid goodbye to him. His face still sometimes haunts her. She remembers his smiles and misses a lot of things about him. And then she realizes, maybe her friend is right. Maybe there really is just one true and great love for each one of us. That one person with that special smile, that special way of looking at her that makes her feel as though she is the prettiest girl in the world. The very same person who makes her heart beat faster and brings out the best and the worst in her... That rare person who can make her life into a series of upheavals, a roller coaster ride of mixed feelings and bittersweet moments. For her, that person is he – he who made her define and defy love...

Sadly, in most cases, as was in hers, that person is usually the one who got away.

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*for her. Indeed, you will never know what you got till it's gone.

reprinted from my Friendster blog dated July 17, 2007.

Let Me Be

Let me be the one you call
When the world closes in on you
Let me be there and I will be with you
The whole time through
Let me be the one to pick you up
When you stumble and fall
I'll give you my strength, I'll give my all
For you to again stand tall
Let me be the shoulders you lean on
The same shoulders that you can cry on
Come what may, I'll be there
Bearing with you what you have to bear
Let me be your friend
I give you a friendship that will never end
You can always trust and rely on me
Believe, and let me be.

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written when I was 10

My Guardian Angel

When I see your smile,

Tears run down on my face.

I can't replace.

And now that I'm stronger,

I have figured out,

How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.

And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall.

I'll stand up with you forever.

I'll be there for you through it all.

Even if saving you sends me to heaven...

The first time I heard this song a few months back, I was struck at how poignant the lyrics are. Then I remembered you.

I used to think that you are my guardian angel. That is, until I fell in love with you.

I remember you saying, "I'll never let you fall" but now I am thinking that you should have added IN LOVE WITH ME on it.

You were too nice. Too much of a gentleman. Too perfect for me that even if I did my damnedest to not fall for you, I did. You weren't hard to love, you know...

And now I hit rock bottom. In fairness to you, you were there to cushion my fall but only as a friend. You were my angel, right? And I was your ward. And that is all there is.

How could you not notice? Worse, how could you not feel it? How could you ask me how I was doing and then when I tell you that I had been nursing a broken heart you would go to my defense saying I only had to tell you who the guy is and you would beat the lights out of him?

If you only knew, you would be beating yourself black and blue.

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Song Title: My Guardian Angel